Since I was in school and traveling by plane meant that it might be my last time seeing my friends and family. I always have this fear of the plane crashing, (God forbid), and I recall how many times I wrote my will to my friend Fadia because I thought I might not see her again. Its funny how back then my will would include things like ” the key to my diary is in the 2nd drawer of my desk… so please take that diary yourself” or something like “Tell our friends how much I love them”.
My life back then revolved around my friends and on silly things, which I still find cute… but now that Alhamdulillah am blessed with my little family, my whole life is based on them.
Every time I fly, and especially when I fly alone, my great fear is not to be able to see them again. Not to be able to hug them and tell them how much they mean to me. Not to be able to tell my husband that he is my hero and that without his love and care I can not survive. I would not be able to be with my kids in all their accomplishments and happy moments. I fear that me being missing in their lives will make them sad and affect them, and I can’t bear the thought of it.
I am always on airplane mode when am traveling, where I would just stare at the beautiful sky and fluffy clouds and be overwhelmed with emotions. I would just cry and cry and think of all my loved ones.
I pray that I can always have my children know how much I love them. I hope Insh’alla Allah will grant me the healthy life to be around my two most precious gifts, Talia and Yaser, and my one and only man
Take a moment every day and make sure you tell your kids, your parents, your husband or any loved ones how much they mean to you. I know actions speak louder than words but words are the most beautiful way of letting your emotions speak.
الله يحسن خاتمتنا و يحميلي عيلتي و يخلينا لبعض و لا يحرمنا من بعض يارب